Fiction: Son of No. One


I wanted to write about Australian life as Australian life can be in the cities, the interior. Most of us function very far from the land of gum trees and windmills and true blue Aussie blokes yeah mate yeah beers ‘n that fuckin’ sport ay yeah she’ll be right as bafflingly and consistently espoused by our film and literature. That is small representation of what this country is and can be, and I’m periodically super annoyed by the middling tourism brochure that seems to serve as our artistic identity as well as celebrate a certain kind of willful ignorance that regularly does not apply. When it does, it should not be celebrated. It’s a problem here. Stop pushing it as a national virtue.

This story was rejected by just about ever ‘major’ lit journal in Australia. It was accepted almost immediately by an American lit journal that specialises in Australian works. I know. I laughed my ass off, too. Then I cried it back on, so I could rip my morning coffee shit and whisper “Fuck you,” to the high-rise of “Sorry, there aren’t enough cork-hats in this” no-no slips shading my gmail.

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Ah yeah, bisexuals. You know them. See them on the street sometimes. Very obvious. That is a lie. It is a condition of using ‘LGBTQI’ in Scrabble (it’s allowed) that, to make the ‘B’, you must use one of those blank tiles that has been told it can be anything. Bisexuals, it seemed to me – and particularly, specifically bisexual men – are not allowed to be. Anything. Having very closely met boys who like boys and also girls – close enough I could imbibe the thick, dualistic tones of dong-chowder and cervical bisque on their breaths – I became sadder and sadder still: What a thing to be the stubborn pencil that can only be marred but never truly erased instead of A Person Who Loves. DNA sent me in search of the pink, the purple, the blue, the few for issue #178 last year. It got a lot more investigative than I thought it would and some skinny sweaty men masturbated at me from underneath their scarlet towels. Continue reading

Toby McCasker, 2014 En Review // White Supremacists, HIV Fetishisation, Fascism of the People, Games Writers in Their Underpants & Reducing the Male Population By 90%

it's meeee in my hometown of Melbourne AUI only worked as a journalist for about six months of this year. I’d pushed myself too hard, and I’d started waking up with the shakes, the sweats. I’d internalised a lot of bad human times out there on the fringe and you don’t just turn them off. Not if you care about things and stuff, which I wish I didn’t – brutally, honestly – but I do, and in a very bleeding way. Scant two years back, I just wanted to be the most ballin’ ass traveling bard of the world’s condition around, never mind the effect. Everything had to have its toes pointed on the edge, it had to fit with this ideal I’d built and forcibly shadowed everyone with. It was all about me. Along the the way, my motives became a lot purer than that. A lot more selfless. I forgot me, and good riddance. When it becomes about the author and not the book, you are failing. If someone’s byline is figuratively bigger than their headline they are no longer an empathic truth-seeker, but a reliable shill of opinion incapable of objectivity. It’s useless, self-serving. Preaching to the choir is my enemy. 2014 is when I realised that.

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TRILOGY: My 2013 with Passed Out Juggalos & Insane Clown Posse // VICE, FasterLouder, Noisey

POJ girls Vice little2014’s imitation velvet curtain is falling,  but I’m so hip to the stir I’m only just now thinking about the end of 2013. Don’t even try to be me you’ll fucking explode. My vibe is a veritable war in heaven; a prototype for the confessions of an immortal being. Do these esoteric turns of phrase mask my middling self-esteem good? Last year was the Year of The Clown, little doubt. I wanted to know everything about Insane Clown Posse’s fandom culture after my brother-son and photo-dog partner in crime-jazz Nic Bezzina showed me the lovely ladies of Passed Out Juggalos. I spent months tracking these girls down for Vice. Months. Being that I’m in Sydney AU and they’re collectively spread out across Sacramento and Kentucky in the US, hey: Months. “Toby, why can’t you put that kind of journalistic verve into, I don’t know, important local issues?” Because naked clown babes, mother. It did not stop there. After establishing myself as a goddamn lunatic, The Year of the Clown would lead me into an interview with Violent J for FasterLouder and culminate in a really, really badly behaved attendance of Insane Clown Posse’s show at The Hi-Fi in Sydney for Noisey. Hi, skinny blonde chick with the glasses I got sticky with up the front? Good jive.

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FEATURE: The Story So Far Cry // Hyper

HYPER227_FarCry3-1Back in 2012 when Far Cry 3 was just a cool whisper on the island wind before it’d be a GotY typhoon, Ubisoft initiated Protocol Pre-Release Hype as big studios like to do because money and fame and bitches. Usually this will amount to a slew of carefully curated hands-on demos and maybe they’ll fly out a savvy media-trained PR rep (groan) or even a ‘community manager’ (wtf) to try to dodge your questions as deftly as possible while aggressively staying on-message. Ubi didn’t do that for Far Cry 3. They sent the game’s lead writer, Jeffrey Yohalem, instead. That, I thought, was awesome. At the time I was writing a bunch for Hyper, and just as I was about to petition them to send me over to talk to him, they’d already done it. “You think you’re a writer too, right?” Totally.

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INTERVIEW: Benicio Del Toro // AskMen [video]

Benicio Del Toro askmen interviewBeen writing in and around entertainment’s mouth for so long I wound up as AskMen’s entertainment editor for about two years there. It was a funny time. John Cleese told me some incomprehensible shit on speakerphone once. I talked to Dolph Lundgren about chicks and muscles. Then there was Benicio Del Toro. I am not shy about admitting that when we were dumb teens, my bestest bro and I saw Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas, instantly ordained one another Raoul and Dr. Gonz respectively (he’s spindly and awkward, I’m swarthy and prone to sudden outbursts), and did a metric fuck-ton of drugs. This was also the first thing I said to Benicio Del Toro upon meeting him in the swankiest floodlit Sydney hotel room PR money can briefly rent.

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INTERVIEW: The Dillinger Escape Plan’s Greg Puciato // The Vine

The Dillinger Escape Plan have been feeding therapeutic fish heads to the chaos upstairs since I was about 14, around when Calculating Infinity came out. Man, that record. Greg Puciato wasn’t fronting DEP at that point, but he was by the time of their next LP, Miss Machine. Been taking shits into bags live onstage at Reading ever since. Greg’s my kinda person. I was having one of those days where I did not even care what I was saying and so was he. Magical #realtalk happened. For mi frens at The Vine.

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FEATURE: Making Music with the Screams of Mental Patients, Rape Victims, and Kids // NOISEY

Noisey Gulaggh screenCirca middle of last year I made contact with a band out of Holland who used to be called Stalaggh, but are now called Gulaggh. More a nihilistic collective than a band, they don’t make actual music per se but uncomfortably dark soundscape trips into human misery. The “human misery” part is too real: All those screams are clandestine field recordings of mental patients, prostitutes, rape victims, and damaged kids losing their shit. This was my debut for VICE’s music channel Noisey, and I suppose, yeah, jumping through a house party window and announcing “I AM A HEADCASE” can work for some people. Wouldn’t recommend it, though. I find it pretty hard to make friends.

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INTERVIEW: The Used’s Bert McCracken, “Through a Haze of Sole Remaining Vice” // HYSTERIA

Hysteria#18_TheUsed1Hysteria wanted to put The Used dude Bert McCracken and Parkway Drive man Winston McCall on the cover of issue #18 so they asked me, “Asshole, think of something.” Being a massive fucking genius I thought it’d be OK if we put Bert (who is tiny now he’s not a mad alcoholic anymore) in a shopping cart and made Winston (who is beefy now he’s still a good Aussie bloke) wheel him around a local supermarket. Afterwards Bert’s like, “You and me, let’s go to a bar and talk. I don’t drink anymore, but,” and he already had about five cigarettes already in his mouth and lit, “I do like to smoke.” Smoking is Bert McCracken’s sole remaining vice, and we real-talked through a haze of Stuyvesant for a long time about all kinds of everything.  Continue reading

FEATURE: Women of Cosplay Talk Sexism, Femininity, & Cookies in the Mail // IGN

mini cosplay wimminzThe sexism discussion in video games (such as it is) can be so retarded I can’t stand it. Any ‘discussion’ whereupon two implacable agendas and a fantastic dose of immaturity collide is good for boosting the popcorn industry’s share price but not much else. I figured if anyone’s gonna have a seasoned perspective on chromosomal division in ‘geek’ culture, it’s gonna be near-naked ‘n fearless cosplay ladies like Ardella, Black Cat, and The Vixen Gamer. Naturally, the comments section on this thing is gnarly with sexless hobgoblins and their throwaway idiocy, although I did laugh a lot at “Stop sexualizing sex! – Feminism.”  Come on that shit is funny. This was for IGN.

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